POOOPED

First, I'd like to give a shout out to all my friends, family, acquaintances, etc. who home school. As much as I occasionally think that this would be a good idea. Summer vacation sadly reminds me that this is not for me. Now on to the gist of this post. Maybe it is because I am in my 30's or that I have 4 children or that I try to do too much and become overwhelmed and then accomplish nothing...but I am tired. I am tired of refereeing sibling rivalries. I am tired of trying to entertain and stay on top of laundry and drama. I am so tired that I have ZERO motivation to do anything. Seriously when I wake up I feel as though I have not slept at all and that I may as well have not slept at all..... Is this just me? I don't think so. Many of my fellow mothers at arms feel the same away. We want to embrace the joy of mothering BUT often I am afraid I may embrace it right around the neck....Maybe it is because the routine that school offers is out of the window and therefore nothing goes right? Maybe my 13 year old mattress is to blame....Maybe my 33 year old body is to blame...Maybe it's just pure apathy? Whatever it is I have gotta get over it because I am utterly USELESS! I feel like all that I do is spin my wheels to utterly NO avail... very little sees exciting or motivating anymore....I think I will nap now. (I wish)